Fish out of water

Whoa, it's been a while since my last entry. The problem has been that the indoor pool sessions I've been using ended for the summer, and there was a multi-week drought before the new open air pool sessions began. This meant for me that I've been doing less diving and more endurance and technique trainings recently. Among other things I participated impulsively on a half marathon, and managed to finish it in 1h 33min and change without any real pushing despite my weakest link, calves, collapsed at 15km mark and forced me to change my running technique completely. As for technique training I've been doing some bare-foot mono kicks with a swimming board at a local pool that's way too crowded for even thinking about using the real monofin. Apparently I haven't appreciated fully the opportunities the dedicated and empty pool sessions have provided during the indoor season.
All in all, my physique is in OK shape, technique is coming together slowly but surely. The problem is that I've lost my competitive edge and routine for long dives and thus I've had difficulties in gaining self confidence needed for long dives. I'm solving it currently by diving routinely multiple 100m+turn - dives in each diving session. This approach seems to be working very well, and yesterday I didn't feel least bit anxious during my 80m DNF and 105DYN.
Tomorrow I'm having my #1 training session of the week in a 50m open air swimming stadium which resembles the upcoming Maribor pool's profile almost perfectly. I'll be targeting for about 125m in DYN and when it goes well I think I'll be once again confident enough to start going for 150m dives on the next week.